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Sunday, November 13, 2005

Everyone asks me why i like a guy like you
-who ignores me, rejects me,confuses me,
i wish i could answer them but i dunno, i just do.
i wanna be the girl ur beepin
i wanna be the girl ur with when ur out creepin
i wanna be the girl on ur mind while youre sleepin
i wanna be the girl whos heart ur keeping
i want to be the eyes that look deep into your soul
i want to be the wOrld to you - » i just want it all
i want to be your deepest kiss .*
the answer to ur` every ` wish --»*
And all you`ll ever need *«--

Kiss on the hand- I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek- I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck- I want you
4. Kiss on the lips- I love you
5. Kiss on the ears- I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else - lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes- kiss me
8. Playing with your hair- I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist- I love you to much to let you go
    
- - - - - - - <3
 

like Jagged edge said -- Your the best I had
like Usher cried -- I still got it bad
like KC & Jojo -- I'm still going crazy
and like Mariah -- You'll always be my baby

Before you make that first cut, remember--
You will find the blood and pain release addictive.
Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily--
They will get deeper.
They will scar.
They will take sometimes months to heal.
And years for the scars to fade.
If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.
It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.
Even if you are the most honest person ever to live--
You will find yourself lying to the people you love.
You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.
You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.
Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.
Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--
Cutting and covering up cutting.
And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."
And you freak out because the blood won't stop...
And you are gasping...
And you feel yourself shaking all over.
You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can`t tell anyone.
So you sit there alone...
Praying it will be okay--
Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...
But you will, and further....
Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.
And the better you get at treating your cuts,
The deeper they get.
You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.
You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order.
Butterfly strips--
3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...
Betadine...
Antibiotic cream...
Medical tape...
Scar reducers...
You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.
And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--
Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.
Someone who understands--
But of course that never happens.
Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.
Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--
Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...
The list goes on and on.
You will start looking at everyone in a different way.
Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.
Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don't feel so terribly alone.
You wont even think about it,
As your eyes scan their wrists arms.
Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.
But they are not.
You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.
You will start doing a lot of things alone.
You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.
You will always be cleaning up the blood.
Scrubbing your bathroom floor.
Wiping the blood off your keyboard.
You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.
Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.
When you get really desperate,
Anything will be a cutting tool...
Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.
Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.
Say goodbye to things you took for granted.
Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleeveless tops.
A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.
Get ready to itch.
Because you will itch and itch.
So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.
You will dream about cutting.
You will dream about being exposed.
It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.
You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--
At the same time you love it and can not live without it...


Wednesday, November 09, 2005

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

45 quotesz you lucky duckies=)
toyaa&&kiyaa<3

 

the truth is..we hide so we can be found-
we walk away to see who will follow we
cry to see who will wipe away our tears
and we let our hearts get broken to see  -
who will come and fix them.                  <3

there are days that i love you, and days that i dont. days i'd like to be friends.and days that i wont. days i'll pick up the phone and give you a call. days im so sad i dont want to talk to you at all . days i look back at all the things that we shared. days i question myself if you really even care. theres so many things i wish i could say, but im scared it will all come out in the wrong way. no matter how much time goes by, i'll always be by your side, cause i couldnt stop loving you .. even if i tried.

my dream is to be the only ones at the drive in movie
sitting bare-foot in the bed of your truck, hand-in-hand
under a blanket and have it start pouring and you asking
me to dance . <3

the difficult years end up being the greatest
years of your life.. if you survive them  ..
-- BRITTANY MURPHY *

and even though the photograph of me
and you doesn't go with the way things are
now, i still wish i was back in that picture
with you .. in your arms. <3

don`t you miss the nights we talked for hours && i held the phone up to my music saying.. " this is the part of the song that reminds me of us"

if you we're mine..
i'd be your everything <3

Admit it. We flirt with each other.
We have so much fun with each other.
We laugh with each other and we even
try to be with each other.
And i believe that we secretly L0VE
each other. But how come when i think of you
and wonder if you`re thinking of me, it feels
like you aren`t?

as she looks at the picture of the guy
in her year book she whispers, when
will he EVER notice me .. 

 when you can't stop smiling after you talk
to him and you still get butterflies in your
stomach, & that huge smile across your face
everytime you see him , that lets you know he
will always mean something to you  .    <3

if you break up && are still just
friends then you were either
never in love or you still are.   *

you have three choices ; you can
give up, give in, or give it your all

when your life falls apart always remember
that i will be the one who will stay to help
you pick the pieces up && when the rest
of the world walks out on you remember
not to close the door because i am the one who
will be walking in to help you through it all .

you can have it all ; you
just can`t have it all at once
- - Oprah Winfrey *

im making myself nervous
trying to be so perfect
becuase i know your worth it. <3

i`m falling for memories you
& me and what use to be .

if ever there is a tomorrow when were not together
theres something you must always remember;
your braver than you believe, stronger than you seem
& smarter than you think but the most important thing
is even when were not together, ill always be with you *

...& once you find happiness in this cruel world
There is always someone trying to take it away. <3

Im in love ;; Not elementry school
"I love you" "I love you too"
I mean..Im really in love with him

S0METiMES I wonder..
what is it about you that makes
me try so hard. <|3

those feelings that' are the most painful are those
ones that nobody can explain, no quote can describe,
and no tears or smiles can make them go away. they`re
the ones that hurt the deepest the ones that last the longest
and take F0REVER to forget about. <3

i never wanted the stars, never shot for the moon,
i like them right where they are.. all i wanted was you...

if i could do anything it
would be to kiss you in the
middle of the street on the
rainiest day of the year. <3

Missing someone is a part of loving them ;
if you're never apart, then you'll never know
how strong your love really is.. `

. . cause everytime we touch i qet this feelinq
and everytime we kiss [ i sware ] i could fly <3

someone once said - it's the good girls who keep diaries. the bad girls
never have the time. me, i just wanna live a life i'm gonna remember.
even if i don't write it down."
- - one tree hill

every step i take .. every move i
make, every single day, everytime i pray
i`ll be missing you . <|3

-- remembering you is easy
-- i do it everyday, missing you is
-- the heartache that never goes away .

a champion is someone who gets
up ;; even when they can't - -   <3

never forget yesterday but always live for
today, because you never know what tommorow
can bring, or what it can take away . <|3

yeah im good but im no angel.
i do sins but im not a devil
im just a small girl in a big world
trying to find somebody to love."
- marilyn monroe-

i gotta shake it off,
Cause the loving ain't the same
and you keep on playing games
like you know i`m here to stay .
i gotta shake, shake it off - - <3

it's so hard to know that the
closest thing to my perfection
is so far out of reach .. </3
- the real world *

advice is what we ask for when
we already know the answer, but
wish we didn't.

i am not saying girls are perfect because
we all know that's not true, but why be unfaithful
to her if shes always been true to you.


there`s a fine line between love && a waste of time *

keep your head up ..
cause - there are people who
would kill to see you fall.

 it`s funny how in the end you always
end up going back to those that were
there in the beginning

she's just a typical teenager, angry, insecure, confused. i wish i could tell her that its all going to pass, but i don't want to lie to her <|3 - American Beauty

don`t let anyone ever make you
feel like you don`t deserve what you want

- -10 Things I Hate About You *

and saying "i love you"
has nothing to do ..
with meaning it<33

lots of people want to ride with you in the
limo but what you want is someone who
will take the bus with you when the limo
breaks down
- - Oprah Winfrey *

your best friend listens to you when you don`t
make sense stands by you when people call
you things
-argues when you`re not right at all
*trusts you when she knows you`ll mess up 
when you cry shes there helping you out  &&
thats how i know she`s truly my bestfriend  *

the hardest lies to accept are
the ones we tell ourselves to
cover up the truth          <33

our laughs --» [ limitless ]
our memories --» [ countless ]
our friendship --» [ endless
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Hey Everyone, hope you all like teh site=)
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[1]every penny in a well ; every broken wishbone 
every 11:11 on a clock ; every finger crossed, every
turn of a necklace pendant ; every star in the sky;
every fallen eyelash, every blown out candle - every
wish i could make .. will never give me you <3

*dats my favourite one

[2]you are my colored picture'
in this black and white world

[3]be an organ doner,give someone your heart <33

[4]I’m not taken but my heart is.

[5]there will always be that one person
that makes you realize why it   never
really did work out with anyone else

[6]i look at you when you're turned the other way
you have no idea how much i think about you every day
i want you so bad but its just impossible
this aching pain inside my broken heart is terrible

[7]wish i could explain what i see in your [eyes]
how the sound of your [voice] gives me butterflies
how the brightness of your [smile] makes my heart skip a beat
how a kiss from your [lips] can make my life complete

[8]<3 love doesn't make you cry
     don't make that mistake
    because im falling for you
        and i just cant take
       another broken heart

[9]you've got me wondering if i'm good enough <3

[10]thinking of you is what brings a smile to my face
dreaming of you is what makes my heart<3 race
looking into your eyes makes me fall even more'*
but simply__ being with [ y o u ] is what i live for

[11]i LOVE his hugs. they`re so comfy. i could juss fall asleep in his arms ..

[12] i'll never know if its -truly- possible for me to
                    stop thinking about you __ because i'll never try_*

[13]it's kinda sick how im stuck on you'
but its okay because i need you*<3

[14]all i want is one chance` one kiss `one night..
to show you what you mean to me. one chance
to spend one day with you... to show you how
we`re so alike. one kiss to prove that we're
more than friends. one night to hold you tight

[15]. .i see your picture, i smell your skin on the
empty pillow next to mine, you have only been
gone ten days >-> but already i'm wasting away
i know i'll see you again, whether far or soon, but
i need you to know that i care & i miss you <3

 



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